I must say, I have taken on a lot of things onto my plate. Been very stressed and insecure. I ‘ve been busy trying to find myself because somehow I lost myself in the process. After loosing my baby I decided to go back to school and shortly after was in a minor car accident that changed my whole prospective in life. Some days its easy but it does get harder other days for me. It gets hard to wake up go to a full time job, do some therapy (which helps but I’m in severe pain each time) and to school where I don’t get home until a little past midnight to only do it all over again the next day….It gets easier, this isn’t forever (thankfully). But sometimes I feel I’ve taken on so much to help forget the void and empty space I feel in my heart after loosing the baby.
I will tell you one thing for sure, it has made me appreciate the little family I have now. It makes me cherish every single moment I get to spend with them because in an instant it could all be taken away from me, in an instant everything could turn to hell but I prefer to enjoy it while the moment is still alive and beautiful. I didn’t think that way before. I felt like the world was against me and life was out to get me, that wasn’t the case though. Through meditation and mind healing I’m slowly being able to process the fact that God wanted it to happen this way. Others may opinionate differently but this blog isn’t about your opinions, its about mine. God placed me in the very exact moment I was supposed to be in and that one knock down is blooming a whole new chapter for me in my life, in our lives. Anything that I have gone through, am going through and will go through is helping me mold my future my little house as I say it.
The day the car accident happened I had lost a very important person in my life the night before due to driving under the influence. It wasn’t the cause for my accident. However, how ironic is it that this person passed away the day before and the next day I was in one? two different situations obviously. Fortunately for my situation I was not at fault. It was hard for me to pick myself back up from the accident as my anxiety levels were up the roof. Anytime I had to drive I would cry and panic. I’ve come a long way since then, I would say I’m back to normal if not better. Here’s to taking it one step at a time.
**In Loving Memory of our beloved and cherished neighbor Ms. Brenda**
**May you rest in eternal peace sugar foot <3**